How many articles I have read about
Homeland the past three years?
Uncountable.
I have never heard so much praise for a
show or an actor.
Tons of critics around the world have
talked about the show and Brody/Lewis.
Every single praise for sure was correct
and deserved, and made me a happy girl so
why should I dare to criticize or praise
Homeland? The problem is I don't have a specific favourite.
I have seen three seasons and will not
watch another one and almost every episode followed me for days some of them for
weeks.
But S01 E2 S01 E3 S02 E5 and S03 E9 had one
thing in common: they make me feeling uptight let me saying: “please stop, I
can’t stand it anymore.”
When Brody suffering a PTSD attack in S01E02
and ended up crumbling into a corner in his bedroom.
It almost broke my heart. Finally at home and lonely as ever.
An episode later I hated him with the same
intensity.
S01E03 the bedroom scene.
Besides that it was so awkward to watch
because I usually don't witness men masturbate.
But this was the loneliest and humiliating
scene ever. I felt so sorry for Jess because it was so humiliating and as a woman it was
pretty hard to feel understanding for him, and after this I never got back to the whole
sympathy for him I have had before.
But that’s probably just me because I also
felt that Soames
gambled away my love for him after the rape
scene. I can be a strict person!
But the scene between Brody and Jess was so
tough to watch. He is ruining the last bond between them and of course I felt
sorry for him but I wanted to scream: "seek help man!"
Because even he is mentally destroyed and
she is having an affair no woman should be treated that way. I have never expected he
would go that far and was shocked that was really happening…. Because I was
reading an article a couple of weeks later here in Germany and a soldier's wife
told a similar story. The fact that Brody isn’t able to express feelings and
isn't able to get intimate with the love of his life… she was at least when he
left for war.
And the result is doing such a disgusting
thing to her and to himself. And the fact that this is not a silly script in a tv show but the reality for a lot of women and their
husbands made me feel sorry and
let me watch the scene and begging again: please stop. I can’t stand it
anymore.
The amazing interrogation scene in S02E05
was beyond words.
I have never seen a better acted scene in
films or telly. But after all this shit Brody did and even if he deserved a bit of a
punishment that was too much for me.
The way he was sitting there and let us
feel his pain was more than I could chew.
Again actors and writers toyed with me. They
play this psychological game again
where you have to ask yourself about your opinions
and moral weaknesses and I had to
confess that I felt sorry for a so called terrorist who messed up his
marriage, his affair and his complete life and still feeling deeply connected to a man who tortured and destroyed him and you know what…???
I understood him all the way through!! What
does that mean for me and my own life?
This time I wanted to scream please stop
not only for him but for me.
And in my final season (S03) episode
nine left me desperate and shocked.
When I watched Keane I was sure that was
the best thing I would ever see from Damian Lewis because I thought he couldn’t
be better… then Homeland came along and after final episode
in season one I thought the same and after
season two. And watching season three episode nine I wanted
to run out of the room but couldn’t, it's like witnessing an accident you should not
watch but you must.
Brody became a junkie and I thought I would
suffocate watching it.
The scenes also painted a picture of his
life….as he said he was through and we all knew it.
I have deepest respect that an actor let
that happen… let us watch that kind of scenes. More unmasked and uncovered acting
is not possible. It was almost that I was saying: no please Damian I don't want
to see that” because I will never be able to forget.
Brody was gone long before the hanging
scene. Maybe he never really came back from war.
Maybe he had never a real chance to get a
life back. Maybe he is happy now. Finally.
Maybe he thought: “please stop. I can't stand
it anymore .”
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